weng.

sedikit emosional.

berbaur rasa.

maw menangis.

maw ketawa.

maw senyum.

maw segala.

kenapa?

jangan ditanya. saya weng sekarang.

new chapter begins?

it has been exactly two years since 'that' day.

and also two years of 'hye and bye' relationship afterwards.

it's tiring, yet i'm having fun.

the experience is like riding a roller-coaster.

a moment, i was lifted up high to the sky.

whilst the other moment, i was brought down to the lowest point of my life.

after two years, i have gained a better understanding of what really love is.

and it is not only all about love.

i learn much more than that.

and those lessons are certainly valuable for a life time.

*

*

so, what is coming up next?

would i stay?

or am i moving on?

haha. i simply dont know.

currently, i'm sitting on the fence.

undecided.

but hey, it feels good to stay like this.

*

*

why cant i just start a new life?

i am. but, i open up a new chapter of my life in my very own way that you would never understand.

i like it to be this way.

so, please let it be.

duit & saya.

lecturer minta kami practice menulis esei dalam english. tapi err..saya malas. harap maklum.

jj. dua hari berturut-turut da mem-pijakkan kaki di tempat itu. semalam dan hari ini. maka dengan rasminya, duit elaun fatin marini tinggal lg rm30. haha. memang cemerlang, gemilang dan terbilang lah. x smpai sepuluh hari pn lg dpt elaun. tp bley berbaki smpai rm30 je. wah! memang saya patut kawen dgn millionaire. haha! [erk. marini mmg kuat berangan!]

duit mengalir macam air. tidak taw disalurkan ke mana. tengok2 saje da nk abes. aduh! aduh! aduh! pusing otak bila fikir pasal duit. dulu semangat kot nk buat financial management. tapi mcm hampeh je. mampu bertahan sebulan je kot. lepas tu hancur musnah plan tersebut. tinggal kenangan. huu! malang sungguh jadi insan boros ni.

lg seminggu nk blk rumah da. igt nk balik shopping di rantau panjang. tapi, hurm..simpan je la niat 2. mana ada duit lg da. malas arh nk pow mamabah. bukan kesian. tapi ada plan lain. kesh3. nnt smpai kl baru nk pow mereka banyak. ngeh3. *evil laugh* naseb badan la mamabah terchenta dapat anak mcm saya. x pandai nk berjimat cermat langsung. huu!

dengan perangai yg boros macam ni, saya x fikir yg saya akan dapat survive di warwick nanti. oleh itu, harus nekad untuk berlatih berjimat cermat dari sekarang. sedih jugak sebenarnya bila mengingatkan duit yg habis dengan sia-sia. tidak taw ke mana hala tujunya. kalau ada baju sepasang dua 2 okei juga la kan. ini tidak. entah ke mana saje duit tu membawa diri. huhu. sedih!

kalau ikut plan masa depan, banyak benda yg ingin saya lakukan memerlukan DUIT. [kawen x masuk dalam list. harap maklum.] semua plan itu adalah untuk kepuasan diri. jadi saya tidak ingin menyusahkan mama abah. oleh yg demikian, saya fikir saya harus serius dalam menabung. dua posen sehari pn okei kn? kalau didarab dengan 365 hari, saya bley dapat rm73 setahun. lepas 2 kalau didarab dengan 5 tahun, dalam akaun saya bley ada rm365. ok la 2 kn? sudah boley beli tiket untuk melancong ke sarawak lepas habis study nanti. hee~ [tapi, pelancongan ke sarawak pun tade dalam list masa depan saya. heh.]

semoga plan financial management saya untuk tahun depan akan berjaya. harapnya tidak berakhir separuh jalan sebagaimana yg terjadi pada tahun ini. tahun ni cukup 18 tahun usia saya. [erm, sekarang blom lg. lg 13 hari. hehe.] sudah sepatutnya saya mula fikir tentang masa depan. rancangan ekonomi perlu ada untuk menjamin kesejahteraan hidup di masa akan datang. no one knows what's gonna happen next, right? jadi, molek lah sekiranya saya mula menyediakan payung pada hari ini. bimbang pula kalau2 hujan lebat di esok hari.

TeSL Night!

yippie!

the TeSL Night has finally over.

you have no idea how relief i felt.

after a few hectic days, we finally can sit back and enjoy our normal daily routine.

i am now able to have a good sleep, good food, and good time with my girls.

hee~

:D

the TeSL Night just now was real splendid.

i could see that everyone was having fun and enjoying the show to the fullest.

as for me, it feels great to contribute something to my class.

i was quite worried at first because i afraid that i might disappoint my classmates.

however, the joy of working together killed all the negative thoughts.

i really thanked Jamie for her last minute idea.

her appearance had lighted up the show.

she's the real heroine of the story, not me.

:)

i was overjoyed with our success,

which was truly unexpected.

haha.

we're the winner!!

who wont shed tears to hear such terrific news?

ngee~

all the sacrifice which i've made have been paid.

it's really worth it not to go to mama's convocation and share this jovial moment together with all my beloved ones.

tomorrow, we're going to jj to celebrate this success.

wee~

this is such a moment worth to be remembered for a life time.

:D

to all TeSL A students:

i love you guys with all my heart and might.

[cheewah..klo sapa baca ni x terharu lg x taw la.. :p]

p/s: erk. something wrong somewhere wif fb. haha. 2 la. asyik sgt buat something yg x patut slama neyh. x-p

p/s:: gambar tade. rujuk fb utk kererangan lanjut,

mood and thought.

mood1: emotionally not okay

i feel upset because my plan of going to kl must be cancelled due to TeSL night. sobs! i really want to be there during mama's convocation. mama told me that they are going to take family picture on that day. i'm dying to be in the picture. convocation is once in a life time. later it would be MY convocation, not mama's. it won't be the same even if we take another family picture. mama tried to console me by saying that she would save some space for me in the picture. then, she'll asked the respective person to clone any of my pictures in friendster on the photo.

[uh, x menarik langsung. =_=]

thought1: mending wall is not easy

mending wall is hard. yet, mending a broken relationship is even harder. i have tried to find the solution so that everything could get back onto the track again. however, it seems to be useless. finally, i decide to go with the flow. let it be. i'm tired of fixing the wall which can no more be fixed.