cuma luahan rasa hati.

yang zahir nampak indah.
tapi hakikat itu cuma Dia saja yang taw.

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rasa itu.
saya simpan.
saya simpan.
saya simpan.

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faham?
tidak?
maaf.
tulisan ini bukan untuk difahami.
tulisan ini cuma luahan rasa hati.

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uish, jangan fikir macam tu.
saya tak emo lah.
senyum.
:)

aku.&ego ku.

banyak yg perlu diubah.
tentang aku. dan egoku.
ego itu tidak selalunya negatif.
aku taw itu.
tapi kalau langsung terus mendongak ke langit.
hingga tak nampak tanah di bumi,
itu memang tidak positif.
kan?

hidup berprinsip.
berserta keinginan yang sarat.
buat ego aku tinggi melangit.
selalu meminta.
tapi tidak pernah belajar untuk memberi.
oh, tidak.
kadangkala aku memberi.
tapi cuma sedikit.
mungkin hanya setitik dari apa yang aku miliki.
sedangkan aku mendamba segunung dari dia yang menyayangi.

aku.
banyak menunding jari kepada orang lain.
sehingga buta untuk nampak salah sendiri.
itu salah aku. dan egoku.
dan aku taw itu.

this is how i perceive commitment.

in my opinion, commitment:

* doesn't meant you've got to stick to your partner for 24/7
* needs you to trust each other and be faithful as well
* requires sacrifice from one another
* needs you to understand the need of each other
* is not a green light to take over your partner's life
* is not merely responsibility, it's something more than that

well, there's some more. but these are the most important of all.
oh,do feel free to add on. :)

footnote:

- the presence is not really important. because love matters most.
- i can survive without you. but the absence of your love would surely make my life a misery.

hati menangis.

bilik empat segi petak ini bisu. pekak.
mana mungkin ia akan berbicara kepada ku.
pada saat hati rasa ingin menangis,
adakah telinga yang sudi mendengar?

all.in.1

i feel so uneasy today.
there's something which keep bugging my mind.

yet i'm not sure of what it is.

this feeling.
it's kinda weird.
it cause a pain
deep down in there.
and i don't like it.

and.
the tension grows steadily.
i've got a pack schedule.
every week there will be
an assignment to be passed up
until 16th april.
oh, and not forgotten,
the mock exam on the first week of april.
hmm. i'm really a deadmeat.

the faith is fading.
will i be able to get through the final?
ouch!
merely thinking about the failure
is hurtful enough.
what's more if i really can't make it.
nauzubillahi min zalik.

i ought to start working.
there's not much time left.
pray for the best everyone.
may no child will be left behind.
amin.