kosong.

kosong.
ya, kosong.
di ruang jauh itu, ada terasa suatu kekosongan.
di suatu tempat yang jauh,
ada satu lohong hitam sedang menarik aku untuk menyendiri.
menyendiri dalam ruang gelap milik aku sendiri.
dunia nyata hingar bingar.
tapi aku sepi sendiri.
aku.
maw sendiri.
sampai sepi itu menjauh pergi.

nota kaki:

-semoga sepi itu adalah mainan rasa semata.

hadirkan aku satu rasa.

hadirkan saya satu rasa, please.
cuma satu.

mode: feelingless.

*kadangkala rasa yang bercampur baur itu lebih baik dari tiada rasa. saya kata: KADANGKALA.*

nak tidur lah.

nak tidur.
tapi tak boleh tidur.
uhh. kenapakah?
sangat tak cool okay bila tak boleh tidur waktuwaktu sebegini.

uhh. kusut.
dan kusut lagi.
di luar sana banyak bunyi-bunyian.
semoga anda homosapiens macam saya.

perasaan adalah sangat tak best.
tapi otak saya blur.
tak dapat interpret perasaan yang tak best tu.
huu. memang tak best.

perasaan adalah sangat macam-macam.
semuanya kerana berjalan menghadap tasik pulako dalam hujan waktu balik dinner tadi.
bila keluar dari bilik k.Qist pulak ada someone menjerit.
dengan excited.
kuat pulak tu.

kepada anda:
sila jangan jerit macam tu.
sila faham perasaan orang sekitar.
seperti saya.
saya alergik dengan bunyi suara perempuan menjerit.
saya trauma.
sila jangan jerit lagi ya.
oh, lupa nak cakap sorry.
tadi saya ter-cakap awak 'kurang pandai'.
saya tak sengaja.
saya cuak kuasa lapan bila dengar jeritan excited awak tu.
uhh. tak best betul perasaannya.
bukan annoying.
serius.
tapi terrifying.
huu!

saya nak tidur.
nak. nak. nak.
mengantuk, sila la singgah sekejap.
huk.
:(

cakapcakap kosong.

baca buku banyakbanyak.
baca lagi.
baca lagi.
tak banyak masa lagi da marini.
dan dalam masa tak banyak masa ni je akan rasa serabai serabut macam ni.
lepas ni tade lagi da.
okay?

"ok."
jawab marini.

saya suka. ^^

buat yang peduli dari jauh:

saya suka status 2.
suka.
suka.
suka.
hahahaha!
kamu betul.
selamat jadi wanita yang paling bahagia.
moving on dear.
:)

.25

25 days left.
only 25.
i'm struggling -
trying my best to gain as much knowledge as possible in the mean time.
yes, i'm trying.
hard.
very hard.

thanks to you for supporting me.
waking me up at 3 in the morning.
nagging me for sleeping too much.
giving me advice to stop wasting time.
keep calling me to make sure that i dont fall asleep.
doing this.
doing that.
thank you.
thank you.
thank you.
=)

oh, and because of you..
i've come out with this:

the existence of mr ss (study schedule) does aid me to be more focus in doing revision.
therefore, you don't have to be worried anymore.
i can ensure you that i'll do revision everyday from today onwards.
i've kicked away my laziness.
now, i'm pulling my socks in grammar and writing.

the approaching exam is really terrifying me.
but then, i'll try to keep control of my emotion.
say no to stress!

.the end.

bayar hutang.

mayeeni rasa mayeeni hutang dua tag dengan k.Qist. tapi time godekgodek blog dirty+little+secret tu, mayeeni ketemu satu je. jadi, mayeeni langsaikan yang ini aje lah ea. hee~

Q1 : 3 names in your message inbox.
-gemok yang bahagia.
-cik yash rumet terchenta.
-deep tecit.

Q2 : Your Ringtone
-bunyi katak berkokok. ahaha. taw ke cane?

Q3 : What u did at 12 last night?
-berusaha sedaya upaya menyiapkan esaimen es yang amat menyampahkan. huhu

Q4 : Who was the last person you went out with? Where?
-pakcik gemok. simpang. deep & al pun tumpang sekaki. ngee~

Q5 : The colour of the T-shirt you're wearing now.
-masih pakai baju kurung merah yg dipakai ke kelas. malas nak tukar. heh.

Q6 : The last thing u did.
-stalking masyarakat di mukabuku. oppS!

Q7 : 3 of your everyday favorite items.
-al-Quran.
-lappytappy.
-henfon itu. biar retro asal menawan. hak2.

Q8 : The color of your bedroom.
-cat dinding putih. ada wallpaper warna coklat. katil kaler pink. langsir kaler kuning.

Q9 : How much money in your wallet now..
-RM 50++. cukup la nak buat smpai kelantan malam ni.

Q10 : How's life?
-ok saja. rasa lega lepas da setel sume esaimen. sdg plan hidup untuk 4 minggu dari sekarang.

Q11 : Your favorite song..
-saya tade faveret song. macam mana ni?

Q12 : What will you do next week
-study. belajar. what else could you expect from a person who's going to sit for such an important exam?

Q13 : When was the last time you saw your mum
- lama da. :( tapi ta kesah la. malam ni balik. yeay! ^^

Q14 : Where is she now?
-err..lupa pulak alamat rumah. tapi di lemal itu la. jalan kubur lama tu. taw?

Q15 : When was the last time you talked to your parent?
-3 hari lepas. hoho. lama betul tak call mama. tak perasan pulak. life hectic sangat.

Q16 : Who is the last that talked with you last night..
-deep syayam. last word yg dia ckp: "tin, kejot ak nnt 5.30 ea."

Q17 : Where did you have dinner last night
-kat simpang itu lah.

Q18 : The last surprise you got.
-saya surprise bila saya mula buat esaimen hari rabu. hahaha

Q19 : Last thing you borrowed from your friend
-ini. sedang pinjam laptop rumet untuk habeskan questionnaire neyh.

Q20 : Who is your bf/gr or husband/wife?
-seorang gemok yang bahagia. muahaha!

Q21 : What do you feel now?
- lapar. huhu~

Q22 : Wanna share with who?
-dengan seluruh dunia. supaya masyarakat ramai-ramai simpati dengan saya. lalu belanja saya makan banyak-banyak. ngeh3

Q23 : Who knows your secret?
-cik deep. cik yash. k.qist. k.melur. gemok pun taw jugak rasanya.

Q24 : They keep your secret??
-mesti lah. mesti lah. heh.

Q25 : Are you angry with someone?
-tiada siapa siapa. hati sedang riang ria. ^^

Q26 : What do you order at McD
- prosperity burger. yummy! mcFlurry. yummy! oit2. jgn cakap tentang makanan lagi. laparlah. huu~

Q27 : The last time you feel so sad..
-err..bila ea? lupa sudah. begini lah nasib menjadi manusia pelupa. hahaha.

Q28 : mahu tag?
-tiada siapa-siapa.

sekadar bebelan di petang jumaat.

jumaat. 16 April 2008.
dengan rasminya segala esaimen saya sudah selamat dihantar.
oh, tidak.
ada lagi.
ie.
tapi itu senang saje.
nanti cekau mana-mana ready made presentation di internet.
siaplah nanti. bukan ada sape nak kisah.
ie je pun.
kan?
haha. *ketawa jahat*


tatkala esaimen sudah siap, harus mula menghitung hari.
cuma tinggal 14 hari sebelum may menjelang.
dan saya ada 16 hari untuk pulun study dengan tekun di bulan may sebelem masuk ke dewan peperiksaan.
anda rasa sempat tak saya buat persiapan tu?
sempat tak nak habiskan revision keempat-empat subjek tu.
ish. takut lah.
saya ni bukan la pandai sangat.
kalau soal merapu-merapik memang saya cemerlang.
tapi bila buat academic essay memang tunggang langgang.
aish.
macam mana ni?
*garu kepala*

tak pe lah.
mama pesan jangan berhenti melangkah selagi tak jumpa pangkal jalan.
susah ke. senang ke.
angkat kaki dan jalan terus.
soal sampai atau tidak serahkan pada Tuhan.
Dia lebih tahu pilihan mana yang terbaik untuk kita.
tapi harap-harapnya akan sampailah saya di Warwick.
maw pegang salji.
dan impi nak buat snowman yang kecik macam deep.
kemudian letak kon aiskrim jadi hidung.
dan coklat M&M jadi mata dan mulut.
ahaha. comel!

habis merepek.
malam ni saya balik.
mama abah, jangan lupa datang amek.
rindu nak jumpa adik-adik.
hee. seronok betul!
oh.
dan tak sabar juga nak tengok ahli keluarga baru kami.
apa nama kamu ya si cantik manis?
fatin marini bt nik hamizul izumi?
;)

dont.try.to.understand.cause.you.wont

those people.
their words are wise.
they live longer.
thus, they know better.
they say:
"to gain some, you've got to lose some."

however.

i want to gain.
yet i refuse to lose.
i'm greedy.
yes, i am.
yes, i am.
hey, what to do?
i love everything which i have in life.
i don't want to lose any
because i appreciate them all.
understand?

i should have never let the game started.
because i know well that i'll be the loser.

a jasmine for yasmin.

at the very first moment i saw this girl, i fell in love with her.
upon my eyes, she was so beautiful.
she had that aura which would attract everybody to approach her.
yet, i was too shy to do so.

as time passed by, destiny brought us together.
i never realized how this bond was formed.
all that i knew was this bond was really wonderful.

we share a lot of things together.
we share smiles.
we share laughter.
yet we seldom share tears.
because she rarely wants to show it off.
this girl is really strong.
no matter how hard the knockout blow you give her,
she wont ever break into pieces.

this girl:
i can find a super duper nice friend in her.
i can see a dearest sister in her.
therefore, how can i not love her so much?

to my dearest girl:
the sweetest miss yasmin azizan i've ever known,
happy 20th birthday darling!
wishing you the very best in life.
may us together fly to warwick.
may you be healthy, wealthy, and happy always.
may all of your pain be cured a.s.a.p.
may you find your mr right soon.
may Allah bless and protect you forever.
last but not least,
may this life showers you with all the happiness it brings.

oh, and remember this.
life is not a fairytale. but who can guarantee that it could never be one?

love you darling.
i'll treasure this friendship till death set us apart.
*hugs n kisses*

sincerely,
mayeeni.

peduli dari jauh.

ini penghargaan buat yang kamu yang peduli.

biarpun cuma peduli dari jauh,
kasih sayang itu dirasai.
dan dihargai.
sangat.

terima kasih.
semoga kita sama-sama jadi wanita yang paling bahagia.
:)